v-day? pfff! whatever
POSTED AT 12:00 PM

sould_out

hater ba ako o ano? ngayon... its v-day! as usual muntik na naman ako malate kanina... and i forgot my books sa car sa sobrang pagmamadale..err..yon...basta ewan ko ba sa ara nato...

anyways...this day seems normal..i hang out with mah uncle...who looks bummed as ever... err then instead of havin a date...naudlot dahil sa schoolwork..err i went na lang with a friend sa starbucks to chat and have a moment of self pity over a guy (err! pathetic!).. well dito lang as usual sa loob ng bf sa tabi ng tropical sa may president's ave...err but everything's kickin well for me in my studies..but now.0 as in 0 social life! sucks!!!!!
Reading: arvee-s text
Listening to: someone'a laugh
Watching: edward scissorhands
Feeling: retarded

para sa mga lalakeng martyr...
POSTED AT 08:54 PM

sould_out

This is a tribute to the nice guys. The nice guys that finish last, that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and bitching about what assholes guys are, while disproving the very point. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder to lean on but restrain themselves to tentative hugs, those guys who hold open doors and give reassuring pats on the back and sit patiently outside the changing room at department stores. This is in honor of the guys that obligingly reiterate how cute/beautiful/smart/funny/sexy their female friends are at the appropriate moment, because they know most girls need that litany of support. This is in honor of the guys with open minds, with laid-back attitudes, with honest concern. This is in honor of the guys who respect a girl’s every facet, from her privacy to her theology to her clothing style.

This is for the guys who escort their drunk, bewildered female friends back from parties and never take advantage once they’re at her door, for the guys who accompany girls to bars as buffers against the rest of the creepy male population, for the guys who know a girl is fishing for compliments but give them out anyway, for the guys who always play by the rules in a game where the rules favor cheaters, for the guys who are accredited as boyfriend material but somehow don’t end up being boyfriends, for all the nice guys who are overlooked, underestimated, and unappreciated, for all the nice guys who are manipulated, misled, and unjustly abandoned, this is for you.

This is for that time she left 40 urgent messages on your cell phone, and when you called her back, she spent three hours painstakingly dissecting two sentences her boyfriend said to her over dinner. And even though you thought her boyfriend was a chump and a jerk, you assured her that it was all ok and she shouldn’t worry about it. This is for that time she interrupted the best killing spree you’d ever orchestrated in GTA3 to rant about a rumor that romantically linked her and the guy she thinks is the most repulsive person in the world. And even though you thought it was immature and you had nothing against the guy, you paused the game for two hours and helped her concoct a counter-rumor to spread around the floor. This is also for that time she didn’t have a date, so after numerous vows that there was nothing “serious” between the two of you, she dragged you to a party where you knew nobody, the beer was awful, and she flirted shamelessly with you, justifying each fit of reckless teasing by announcing to everyone: “oh, but we’re just friends!” And even though you were invited purely as a symbolic warm body for her ego, you went anyways. Because you’re nice like that.

The nice guys don’t often get credit where credit is due. And perhaps more disturbing, the nice guys don’t seem to get laid as often as they should. And I wish I could logically explain this trend, but I can’t. From what I have observed on campus and what I have learned from talking to friends at other schools and in the workplace, the only conclusion I can form is that many girls are just illogical, manipulative bitches. Many of them claim they just want to date a nice guy, but when presented with such a specimen, they say irrational, confusing things such as “oh, he’s too nice to date” or “he would be a good boyfriend but he’s not for me” or “he already puts up with so much from me, I couldn’t possibly ask him out!” or the most frustrating of all: “no, it would ruin our friendship.” Yet, they continue to lament the lack of datable men in the world, and they expect their too-nice-to-date male friends to sympathize and apologize for the men that are jerks. Sorry, guys, girls like that are beyond my ability to fathom. I can’t figure out why the connection breaks down between what they say (I want a nice guy!) and what they do (I’m going to sleep with this complete ass now!). But one thing I can do, is say that the nice-guy-finishes-last phenomenon doesn’t last forever. There are definitely many girls who grow out of that train of thought and realize they should be dating the nice guys, not taking them for granted. The tricky part is finding those girls, and even trickier, finding the ones that are single.

So, until those girls are found, I propose a toast to all the nice guys. You know who you are, and I know you’re sick of hearing yourself described as ubiquitously nice. But the truth of the matter is, the world needs your patience in the department store, your holding open of doors, your party escorting services, your propensity to be a sucker for a pretty smile. For all the crazy, inane, absurd things you tolerate, for all the situations where you are the faceless, nameless hero, my accolades, my acknowledgement, and my gratitude go out to you. You do have credibility in this society, and your well deserved vindication is coming.

Inlab daw oh?!!!?
POSTED AT 03:33 AM

sould_out

Inlove ka ba? then what is the feeling ba pag inlove? sometimes it makes me think if being inlove makes you sick , or if it makes you smile or jump up and down .... sometimes i thought it can make you insane ...err...or makes you sad or cry? makes you vomit? di ko alam... minsan i think m being indifferent... but really i haven't been inlove...when i thought i was...i'll wake up realizing na hindi pala....continuous search pa rin...but siguro nga i don't have to search or wait or anything... but minsan di mo rin naman maalis ung longing... longing to experience that feeling...or is it a feeling ba??? ikaw ba inlove ka na, nainlove o hindi pa??!?

Freakin Saturday
POSTED AT 04:19 AM

sould_out

it was fun last night i was in new life with mah new friend pam and ish good to see people and to just do ur thing to give back all the praises to God.
and yea to see him again...lol...yea him... who? errr...basta...lol! i still find it hard to talk to people cuz i m really shy. but maybe ill get over it soon.

and last night i crammed again for exams and just scanned notes and i hit up the sack late (arnd 3 am?!? ) cuz i was talking to my friend who always tend to call late in the evening . but yea i did passed the exams today...not that high but at least i passed without studying. i got 70 out of a hundred for the raw score and its good.

speaking of exams yesturrday was soo freakin crazy! my prof released the grades for human ana and physio...i did not study much but i was definitely sure that i answered the test good...but yesterday he said i got the lowest score!!!! (ii got 24 out of a hundred!!!! :stressed i started to cry coz i thought it was "goodbye" for ana!
he didnt belive it too so we went to his office to check it out. he was asking me if i studied...uhhhh..i just sniffed quietly cuz i did not!lol...but yea as he expected there was an error and i got 79 over a hundred for the raw score and it was good cuz i still belong to the top 6 of the class and it was cool...lol...it was really crazy cryin like sh*t yesterday...everybody was lookin at me! and was like..."anu ba yan iniwan ng bf?!" lol...haha another freakin saturday...errr kaes now imma sleep cuz its 11 am and i feel groggy na...
Listening to: some music
Feeling: sleepy

what's up?
POSTED AT 03:18 AM

sould_out

err i woke up feeling bad and lazy today...like i dun wanna go to school and take my exams and i was really blank. I dunno y m acting stupid. maybe because of last night. Im having problems with some guy who keeps on buzzing me of his i love you thingy. i feel pressured... he keeps on saying stuff and i just wanna tell him that "freakin guy! i dun want to do anything with you....we can just be friends..." but i dunno how to tell him. i hate situations like this. I dun want to make him feel bad and i still want to be friends with him. i thought we already agreed to just be friends again but here he goes again...i just want to be free from pressure... to just wait for that time when mr. boo would come and i dun have to be pressured to tell those 3 words...I AM NOT YET READY! and mr. boo..yeah mr. boo is still out there searching for me...yea i do believe it! maybe he's asking God the same way i'm asking God right now...err... but for now imma remain still...an NBSB...lol.
Reading: my mind
Listening to: some country music
Feeling: sick